"As you Wish"..continued...........

You have caught me at a moment when I feel like a freshly squeezed orange......No Juice!..............But .....Do I know how to kick this feeling?....Let's see........what are my options?.....A Fernwood Fresh Lime Coke?.......Mmmmm....,No that is off the list.....Carbonated drinks retain the water.........How about a Crystal lite ?.....Nope....that has Aspartame artificial sweetener which harms the bladder..........Lets see.....Oh what I wouldn't give for a Artic Circle Cheeseburger with onions and French Fries with that Fry Sauce?..............I would kill for that.......I'm afraid not....Those fries you wear on your already gigantic hips and the hamburger is just so moorish......Nope not that......Well maybe...... I have always adored ice cream.....with cashews.....and fresh strawberries........The nuts are wicked in calories.....The strawberries are bathed in sugar.....and the ice cream?....If I want to break out in hives?..........I have lactose intolerance.....
......A taco?..........Its the cheese....sorry.....I swear......by every thing that is holy......Everything I love..... Is forbidden..........
......My forever favorite is potatoe chips......and Harmons Onion Cheese Ball.......I could eat that for Breakfast and again for lunch......and then .....Oh delight again for night meal................
Right now.......this problem is fighting for first place in my list of Goliaths.............I am so entitled.......At any rate......Just wanted to set the stage and explain why today is a Bugger...................And is this not proof that we most often reach for food when we are considering standing in front of a truck?......................But one place I know......that I can find some calmness is when I take a moment.....Turn everything off.......No music......No Tv.....Ho nothing.......And realize how golden is the quiet........And I have started to love the quiet.......It is when the motor we run on.......feels it can relax.......There is no rush..........It is the quiet when we know we are spiritual beings living in a strange place......where we are having a struggle trying to figure it all out.....But it is when...........we turn off the world.......and listen.....that we hear the whisperings of the spirit.....They are trying to contact us......maybe for an urgency......maybe a warning.......maybe an answer to something we have been praying about............But it is not too often.......that we reserve those moments when they can get through the veil......................But they are there just the same.....The Lord promised us that he would walk with us.......And that he would carry our burdens.....And that he would never leave us alone...............If the Lord feels bad about anything.....It is that he has offered us so much...........But we turn him down......He wants us to depend on him.....When a tragedy strikes........Who do we call first?.................That was a statement made by Neil Maxwell.......That the Lord feels really bad when he offers his hand and we ignore it.....Now I think I have vented.......and can get on with things.......Besides enough about food........The Dragon.......And I also want to be pretty and thin when I meet Dad.....I am on my fourth day of Cindys diet....Isagenix...........Pray for me.............
I have been a chunk since I was born...........We walked to school and passed Snelgroves and that great Doughnut shop.......An ice cream for a nickel?........And I really did always feel that I was the fat girl.............But sometimes......I just threw caution to the wind....and had an ice cream .....
and had a doughnut.........I was active enough.......When we were little we lived down a ways from Fairmont Park.....and they had a swimming pool..........I walked every single day up to the park in the summer....to swim......alone......Monday was freezing......Tuesday was a tiny mark off freezing....Wednesday was a little better.....Thursday was getting more pleasant.......Friday was warmer but not as warm as Saturday.......But it also had the whole weeks worth of people perfume............It was rather ragged on Saturdays.....But I went any way.....
It was free...............Free was in.......And you couldn't beat free.......And I
also was part of a tumbling group......There were about 7 or 8 of us.....And we
went around with a Mr. Fairbanks and performed.......Then I played tennis...a lot....
And I skiied......Loved to ski....And I entered the Alta Snow Cup .....one year....
I had no fear until I married and had a baby.....And then I was more reserved in
the things I attempted.....But I remained a chunk......But I had strong legs because
I was always active..........My life was really quite uninteresting.....until I
met Dad..........Then I began living......Really and truly....I started to feel alive.....for the first time.......And my life began the moment we met......

Well....I think I might end for now.....till later.....all my love
.......................Gram.....and Mom.....and grandma Tiki....grandma wonderful....